don't look now

but i find that reading my previous blogs is absolutely hysterical. how much i've changed is unreal. maybe i'll let this kick around for old times sake, but start a new blog for summer? or september? so soon, so soon.

clocks

am i a part of the kill, or am i part of the disease?

hail in august

sometimes, it all just happens when you least expect it
when you're not looking or hoping for it
when it finds you instead.
it's just right. this sense of calm, warmth, a blanket.

i need to get out!

more than ever.
i'm just sick of it all. this week has been so uninspiring, bleak, and bland. i'm back into a state of being academically unmotivated, but at least for everything else i haven't been so settled in a long time. this is my medium, my happy. i just need high school out of the way. i'm ready to do my own thing, thrive somewhere else, and be inspired to truly reach my potential: something i feel like i've only done a couple times in the last four years.
a little more than two weeks until IB classes are done. god, get me out.

hmm. that was easy.
what a pleasant night: darWIN, if you will. i'm enjoying everything so much right now. i love looking at my last blog post and seeing all the things i have to look forward to, with people that provide me with so much happiness.
not a care in the world, carefree, carefree, like a bird.

"it happens."
"what, shit?"

feelin' so light

lots and lots of things to looking forward to:
billy talent, alexisonfire, against me! sunday 28
a visit to queens! suggested and confirmed within 24 hours. wed 31 - thurs 1
30 seconds to mars. sunday 18
jonsi. saturday 1

not to mention two new breeds of freedom: one brand new, and one still intangible, but it's been lingering for a long time, like looking at something hundred of miles across a desert plateau. i'm getting more and more ready for it, but i don't want to wish this time away. this right now-ness, because once it's gone, it's goodbye forever. mostly.

there's no time to be down!